Ok folks so I have had quite an adventure for the past few weeks. While I have been away from home I have been screamed at, just about driven to maddness, and the funniest thing was I like it the whole time. I wonder if that makes me wierd or just disturbed.  Anyways after my quite time in basic I moved on to bigger and better things. I went to Tech school where I learned to be a dental assistant in a matter of nine weeks. Great times and loads of fun. After all this I find out that my next place I will call home will be Germany for two years, which I am very excited about and quite ready to get out of the states once more. I want to thank all those who have prayed for me and kept in contact while I have been roaming. Have a good day. Oh and always remeber that no matter what you do or where you are there will be a someone there to be your friend. Take care

Steps

Ok so where do I start, lets begin with some remembering.  Back when I was still in Switzerland I mentioned to a few people that the military might be in the next steps for me when I got home. Well as the stars would have it I never did anything along those lines cause I was given a well paying job working in Los Angeles and started school. As life went on these things were the area I spent most of my time working, eating and homework. Oh and sleeping but very little of that. But since I came home I never felt there, I thought that I might just need some time to settle and get used to life as I knew it. Well in some ways I did but my spirit was restless and I really don’t like a restless spirit. I really had no reason to think that things weren’t right or that any thing would be changing but these were my thoughts and I didn’t know what I was to do with this so I stayed and did what I was doing, work school and eating.  Things didn’t change till about July 20 on that day my parents told me that they wanted to see me voluntarily move out and find another residence by the end of August. For some this might have been the end of the entire world and nothing could possibly go right. But because of my restless spirit it all made sense to me, I feel like I’ll be leaving and not feeling very secure in the residence that I had, I found the news of voluntary movement a comfort or confirmation of what I was receiving in my spirit. I wont say that I didn’t have doubt about what it was I would do or where I would go but I knew this day was coming so these were things I just had to deal with. After about two weeks of extensive searching for other housing I realized that I had another option, Military. Wasn’t that a direction that I was going before I came home, wouldn’t it make sense to look into that field a little bit deeper to try and see what it might have to offer? Well that is what I did and let me tell you that opened a whole other set of problems.  The biggest one being what branch should I go into. I wanted to do the army and get the physical training and school benefits from that but something kept bringing me back to the air force, which made very little sense. Because they are defiantly not as physical as the other branches, which had me very confused and needing some direction.  During this time I really thought about the big picture that how we fit into these grandiose plans that God has planned for us.  From what I was told from a lot of my friends was that they felt God telling them to go in a direction that made very little sense or they weren’t quite sure why that direction was an option to begin with.  Something occurred to me while I was on this train of thinking, which was, if we feel our next move is so minute that is has to be part of a bigger picture. This only gives me hope that there is a bigger picture that I am but part of a whole a small but important part. As I came to understand what that meant I also began to just let life take its course and not try and read to far ahead. So in the spirit of walking one step at a time I did not in role in school and after weeks of no work quite that well paying job in LA. I also stumbled upon a job working for a janitorial supply shop. What is my next move, you might ask, well I am planning to be going into the air force and try to get a job as a chaplain assistant. Each one of those steps, the planning, getting into the air force, and then finally getting into the chaplain assistant program if I actually accomplish all that God has pointed my way then it will definitely be from Him. It’s all in the day-to-day one step after another and not trying to anticipate where those steps might lead. Trusting that each step will lead to another that is just as confusing but just as exciting.

God Bless

Well friends I was just sitting around and figured what a perfect oppurtunity to put some thoughts on paper, so here are some thoughts. I know most of you who actually read this would look at me strangly if I told you that I am a very quiet person and get drained when around people. Well since my days abroad its been a challenge trying to find how I fit in back home. I know what you must think its been almost a whole year and your still not sure whats wrong with you. Well let me tell you first of all I used to just let people speak for me and have my life all spelled out for me. Finding a voice and not really talking to God is really difficult.

I think that this is what its all about what I have to say. Its not that I'm not heard or just over looked but that I'm just over-shadowed. For my whole life I had never to answer the questions if I just waited long enough someone would finish the conversation for me, this was an out for me and till this last year or so I had no problem doing that but now I cant stand the fact that I dont have a voice. Not only in the real world but also in my spiritual life as well. How am I supposed to have a conversation with God if there is no one around to finish the conversation for me? Another sad part that this brings up is the fact of feelings, because my words were rarely mine I never tried to find out what my real feelings were. Or how to verbalize those feelings, so I just learned to stuff or let it go so I didn't have to deal with that side of things. Unfortunatly for me when God asks me to lament to Him and let my woes rest on His shoulders I draw a blank.  Its not that I dont have things to lament about, its that I dont see them as good laments. You know the ones that you bring to God like Davids in Psalms, now those are good ones. But because I am numb to the fact of what I really feel or how I am supposed to verbalize those feelings. So sofar this is far as I've gotten and its quite frusturating seeing what I need to accomplish and having no idea how to do it.

Well have a good morning and when you struggle and feel alone and peterifyed look up and smile back at God who is always watching and smiling down on you. HE LOVES YOU.

God Bless

Well I'm sure some of you know already but I did not go to russia although my friends are still over there so still pray but I did not join them. Well not much is changing I'm working as a life guard at the water park by my house and working with asbestos in LA but other then that not much. Just thought I would let yall know I'm still in the country.

Have a good afternoon

God bless

Dear Supporter

Before I ask for your support let me tell a little of what I have doing this last year. 

It was the fall of 2005 and instead of going to college like most high school graduates I decided to travel to Switzerland for a year of bible school.  I did this through an organization called YWAM (Youth With A Mission), this group teaches an applicable way of getting Gods word to the masses.  It was a very good growing experience for me in my relationship with God.  After three months of staying in Switzerland and learning about the character of God, I was sent out to teach what I was taught.  I was blessed to be able to go to Ethiopia for my mission trip. Some of you participated with me as you helped me raise the money to do this.  Ethiopia considers itself a Christian country but moved toward an ultra-orthodox type of philosophy.  As my team and I traveled around the country we went to the different churches that we found, some times we had to look very hard and travel for and spoke to them to encourage them to stay firm in their course with God.  After three months of solid travel and encouragement I went back to Switzerland for another three months of school. Between these two periods of missions and school the Lord provided a way for me to go Israel and see my sister, then to England to visit a friend. This time was a more a reprieve for what lay ahead for me.  When I got back to Switzerland I spent the next few months studying the word of God. This school took a in depth look into what the bible was all about.  This school taught me that the bible really is a collection of love letters that He has written to specifically for me, well really to all of us but when I read it, it felt like it was just for me. 

I know that the Lord has blessed me in many ways throughout my walk with Him. Just to mention a few and now I need your help in this next step that I feel He is leading me in.  The need is about $2600 for me to go to Russia with my church and help close an ongoing relationship that my church has had with a sister church in Russia.  This trip will be the last of a six-year commitment to this church in Russia. I leave on the twenty-eighth of June, I know this is short notice to come up with this much money but I say that this is just another way that I can see Gods amazing hand guiding my life and the situations around me.  If the Lord does not lead you to give then I would ask that you not give. Please just pray for me, and the opportunities that will be open to me while I am over there.  One of the many things that I left out of my experiences while overseas last year was the fact that most of my support came through much prayer. I was touched in times when I know I would have fallen apart God hadn’t stepped in and answered some prayers I later found were sent at that same time.  If you can not support me financially then all I ask is that you support me spiritually. Thank you for your support, however that may present it self to you. I feel that God is leading me in this direction for this year to show me more of whom He is and how I can grow closer to Him. One of the greatest things that I was able to take from all my escapades is the love to reach out to foreign people and touch them with the love of God.

If you feel that you are to support me financially then please send a check to

6211 N. Hanlin Azusa CA 91702. Please makes checks payable to New Song Church. Thank you for your support.

God Bless